by Kristin Marie » Thu Dec 02, 2010 3:01 pm
Lindsay, I feel the same way...This is like a Safe Haven for me as well. As many of you guys know i live with my mom and have been since birth. I can't live by myself and there's no way I can. I wish I can. I love my mother, but its so hard sometimes because she's so much like my grandmother( her mom) she was bossy, argumentative and doesn't admit when she's wrong( I think she get it from both my grandparents and...my uncle, that lives here in GA, is the same way...) if she comes home from work, tired or mad at something, Or if I try to show her something and its not what she wants to hear, she takes it out on me- the verbal abuse...is what I call. She'll say stupid things like,
"I'm not taking you to work anymore!" That her favorite line..."I'm never doing anything for you anymore." Its hurtful to hear those words...I don't deserve the verbal outburts from her. Thing is, I LET her and I don't do a thing. I go right up to my room and read or watch tv. Ken, my step father scolds her for talking like that, but she does not care. She takes it out of Ken too sometimes, but 100 percent of it, goes to me.
That why I'm always into stories of my personal life. Writing is my safe haven, its my security and no one touches it but me. Coming here or going to one of the brother's website is what makes me feel good. Talking to Lindsay, Sabrina and Dianna makes me feel better. They allow me to escape my problems for awhile. I have amazing friends and I love them...And Shannen is just the best. I wish she is here so I can talk to her. She helped me out in the past and I feel that I need her now...but with her dad passing, that not a good thing.
But thing that bothers me is: I thought when you finally fall in love with the right guy, you mellow out? Your not verbal toward people? Your much...better? I don't get it
Kristin Marie
Always Dream, no matter where, or when...Dream Big Or Small. Dreams is where the heart is.