Well thought i'd update you guys.... yesterday morning my grandma (my grandads second wife) died, I had prepared myself, so there wasn't as much shock this time. I'm in two minds as to how I feel to be honest, I didn't know her that well, hadn't seen her for years, as she lived almost 500 miles away. And after learning of how nasty she was, (over the years she accused and badmouthed all of us grandkids, accused me of stealing from my grampa, which i'd never do, and accused me of being a prostitute, and that my babies daddies weren't my babies daddies)i'm not sure if i'm just numb or just don't care. I won't be going to her funeral, but will be sending some flowers, at least i'm not holding a grudge. Just thought i'd let you guys know....you have gotten me through so much, so thank you